From "Rachel" to "Ross" -- An Open Letter
Dearest "Ross" -- Yes, I'm years too late and yes, this thin veil of anonymity is probably not the declaration you're looking for. In fact, I'm pretty sure you're not looking for a declaration from me at ALL. Nonetheless, this is keeping me awake and I need it out of my head. Let me first start off with an apology. I was going to start with the fact that I love you, but that's WAY too cliche for my taste. So, I'm sorry. Sorry I was a bitch to you for the entire duration of our 3 week relationship and the vast majority of our high school friendship. Sorry I emasculated you, kept you at arms length and constantly made you feel inadequate. I don't really have an explanation for my behavior, just that I wasn't where I needed to be for us to survive--or better yet, strive. So there you have it, I'm sorry for all I did (and didn't do) throughout our time together. I write this letter in hopes that it finds you and that maybe someday, ...