Bad Friend
I will start this post with a disclaimer: I'm a little emotionally volatile right now. But I can see clearly, so my feelings aren't totally unfounded.
I've come to the conclusion that I have a bad friend. She's self-centered, selfish, inconsiderate and pretty much an all around bitch. Having once prided myself with the bitch connotation at one point, I can easily see why I was drawn to her. I guess just not when directed at me.
Let me explain my situation: I am homeless, for all intensive purposes. I don't have a place, I gave it up for a job that has since been eliminated. I work at a retail store that was just meant to pass time until I moved to embark on my new journey. That didn't happene and I'm devastated. I am currently staying with my cousin, sharing her bed and being in the way. I cry myself to sleep and can't seem to get around to getting an upper hand on anything. But I digress.
This friend offered her couch and when I took her up on it one night, she all but kicked me out. I was intruding, not hanging out. And I get that, people just like their own. Since then, though, the things I once liked or laughed at aren't funny or cool anymore. Everything we do has to be to her specifications and if not, she's overly vocal about it to the point where people just cave.
I don't. And that's why we butt heads. Now on to tonight.
I haven't spoken with this "friend" since I saw her Sunday. I helped her boyfriend move in, and she didn't speak to me that night OR returned my calls from this evening and last. I left her a voicemail about her behavior tonight because I want to believe she doesn't want to be the way she is and will take note. So, I decided not to ride with her to dindin (plus, I live in AFRICA and wanted to head home after, rather than overstay my welcome and try to hang out with her).
We were supposed to eat at a sushi place, one that has like, four locations. It was my understanding we were going to one, but the rest of the group went to another. Seeing as how I was following the other car and they ditched me, miscommunication was bound to take place. I had no idea where the other place was, so I came home.
So this "friend" had her boyfriend call me and then the other person in our party text me. She didn't bother to call or check on me, but were the tables turned, our friendship would be over.
And it is. I want to salvage things, but I can't for the life of me understand how, in my time of need, I finally realize she's a bad friend.
I've come to the conclusion that I have a bad friend. She's self-centered, selfish, inconsiderate and pretty much an all around bitch. Having once prided myself with the bitch connotation at one point, I can easily see why I was drawn to her. I guess just not when directed at me.
Let me explain my situation: I am homeless, for all intensive purposes. I don't have a place, I gave it up for a job that has since been eliminated. I work at a retail store that was just meant to pass time until I moved to embark on my new journey. That didn't happene and I'm devastated. I am currently staying with my cousin, sharing her bed and being in the way. I cry myself to sleep and can't seem to get around to getting an upper hand on anything. But I digress.
This friend offered her couch and when I took her up on it one night, she all but kicked me out. I was intruding, not hanging out. And I get that, people just like their own. Since then, though, the things I once liked or laughed at aren't funny or cool anymore. Everything we do has to be to her specifications and if not, she's overly vocal about it to the point where people just cave.
I don't. And that's why we butt heads. Now on to tonight.
I haven't spoken with this "friend" since I saw her Sunday. I helped her boyfriend move in, and she didn't speak to me that night OR returned my calls from this evening and last. I left her a voicemail about her behavior tonight because I want to believe she doesn't want to be the way she is and will take note. So, I decided not to ride with her to dindin (plus, I live in AFRICA and wanted to head home after, rather than overstay my welcome and try to hang out with her).
We were supposed to eat at a sushi place, one that has like, four locations. It was my understanding we were going to one, but the rest of the group went to another. Seeing as how I was following the other car and they ditched me, miscommunication was bound to take place. I had no idea where the other place was, so I came home.
So this "friend" had her boyfriend call me and then the other person in our party text me. She didn't bother to call or check on me, but were the tables turned, our friendship would be over.
And it is. I want to salvage things, but I can't for the life of me understand how, in my time of need, I finally realize she's a bad friend.
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