Get Behind Me!! Wait, No...
The name Jacob has often been a problem for me. We've got Taylor Lautner, the 16-yr-old that plays a HOT guy named Jacob, my friend's handsome son is named Jacob and now, enter my co-worker Jacob...Not much can be said about him--except the fact that he is my WEAKNESS.
Let me explain. Jacob is a 6'4" HOMEGROWN HUNK of man. Soft brown eyes, cute, slightly thinning hair. He's like Matt Damon but hotter and I LOVE Matt Damon. He's a true mix between George O'Malley of Grey's Anatomy fame and Jason Bourne. Just FLY. Like, no eye contact fly.
When I first saw Jacob, I purposely ignored him because I could tell it was going to be a problem. Then we had to have dinner a few weeks ago and my life has been ruined ever since. You know how I always say let the fantasy be a fantasy? So is not the case with Jacob. Despite my concerted efforts, I had to sit with the object of my affection and through conversation and longing glances, I have fallen in love.
Like Malcolm in the Middle, life is unfair. Jacob has nice teeth, a good shape and an attitude that just makes me want to let him be the head of my home. I mean, it takes a lot to make me subject because I am simply used to running things. But Jacob? Jacob has a chick changing her mind and re-thinking her priorities. I am so sorry to say, but Y-E-S.
So why the mental anguish? SO many reasons! First, he does not love my god. Do I know for sure? No, but I can tell by the conversations we've had and his aspirations. Second, he's a little TOO homegrown to want to be with a black chick. Yes, I flirted with that kind of disaster before and have been left with words unsaid and sadness. Though I am the starter-kit for dating a black girl, I am not in a place to want to teach a guy how to be aggressive and when he's gone too far. Third, he may be slightly superficial. Which he should be; he is SMOKING HOT.
So yes, there is my heartbreak. The 2nd in 3 months (Capt. 22 for those keeping track), sheesh!! Just another story to add to my track record of the unavailable loves of my life. The temptation is real, but I will keep on keepin' on until I find a guy to like that will finally like me back.
Until then, dudes that interact with and it amounts to nothing, get behind me!! Wait, no, stay in front so I can at least stare at you while I pass the time.
Let me explain. Jacob is a 6'4" HOMEGROWN HUNK of man. Soft brown eyes, cute, slightly thinning hair. He's like Matt Damon but hotter and I LOVE Matt Damon. He's a true mix between George O'Malley of Grey's Anatomy fame and Jason Bourne. Just FLY. Like, no eye contact fly.
When I first saw Jacob, I purposely ignored him because I could tell it was going to be a problem. Then we had to have dinner a few weeks ago and my life has been ruined ever since. You know how I always say let the fantasy be a fantasy? So is not the case with Jacob. Despite my concerted efforts, I had to sit with the object of my affection and through conversation and longing glances, I have fallen in love.
Like Malcolm in the Middle, life is unfair. Jacob has nice teeth, a good shape and an attitude that just makes me want to let him be the head of my home. I mean, it takes a lot to make me subject because I am simply used to running things. But Jacob? Jacob has a chick changing her mind and re-thinking her priorities. I am so sorry to say, but Y-E-S.
So why the mental anguish? SO many reasons! First, he does not love my god. Do I know for sure? No, but I can tell by the conversations we've had and his aspirations. Second, he's a little TOO homegrown to want to be with a black chick. Yes, I flirted with that kind of disaster before and have been left with words unsaid and sadness. Though I am the starter-kit for dating a black girl, I am not in a place to want to teach a guy how to be aggressive and when he's gone too far. Third, he may be slightly superficial. Which he should be; he is SMOKING HOT.
So yes, there is my heartbreak. The 2nd in 3 months (Capt. 22 for those keeping track), sheesh!! Just another story to add to my track record of the unavailable loves of my life. The temptation is real, but I will keep on keepin' on until I find a guy to like that will finally like me back.
Until then, dudes that interact with and it amounts to nothing, get behind me!! Wait, no, stay in front so I can at least stare at you while I pass the time.
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