Guess Who's Bizzack...

Hey guys...With all things in life, I let what pays the bills get in the way of my dreams. Day in and out, I dragged myself to a place that brought me no joy to collect a meager check because it was something I was good at. Today I say "no more," and take my power back. This isn't meant to be some polarizing post about cogs and office jobs; it's not now, nor will it ever be something from that place. So here goes!

Many may have heard me say "there's your dream, and then there's what pays the bills." I've always been a huge proponent of living your best life, something I got away from. I thought working to attain and maintain things like a home, car, and groceries to the detriment of my mental and physical health was just what adults did.

Do not misconstrue, I am happy; I'm just not content, and that is where the discord comes in. I know there is more to life and #adulting does not have to be miserable.

I have traveled the world, enjoy my weekends and after work. I don't have children, but am the best babysitter. Much like my mother before me, and my father today, I live to help others, sometimes to my own detriment, but THAT is what brings me daily joy.

I now wake up daily with aches, pains, and struggles I can only say I've subjected myself to. I work for an employer that does not appreciate what I do, but that's not something I can hold against them: it's BUSINESS. I've talked to so many people adnauseum; cousins, my father, my brother, and the sentiment always seems to be the same: being a cog in this machine is not worth the mettle it's built on. I, for one, want to break free.

I admire those that have taken steps to chip away at the expectations society places on us to carve out their own pieces of joy by doing what they love (IG shout outs: @fitness_guru1027 & @debs_lasagna). You are inspirations to me and I will say today's post is for you. (Note: me shouting these two out DOES NOT speak to a shortcoming on anyone else's part, I love you ALL and this is how I feel today and more will come)

So this is the first step!! It may seem small, but writing is what brings me joy, so I'm re-claiming this part of my life.

I promise to present myself at all times with no pretense, no order, and no walls. I will talk about past experiences, loves, current plans, and just the random things in life. 

Because those are the things that make me happy. So yeah, guess I'm bizzack!!!
Location: Atlanta, GA, USA

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