Reminisce On the Love We Had...
Anyone who's been talking to me knows that I have a speech to write for my upcoming family reunion this week. They also know how stressed out I've been when it comes to having to write the damn thing because it's for a side of the family that I really don't get down with. It's not for lack of loving them, it's just that my dad's side of the family is SO different from my mom's side.
I mean, my mom's side has been through a lot, with 3 funerals in 2 years (my grandmother, my great-grandmother and my momma), had we had stock in funeral flowers, we'd all be rich. But we've been blessed for the past 2 years as well, no real casualties to report. Now, my dad's side of the family, there have been a few blows, if you refer to the Legacy blog, you'll be able to catch up on all the fun stuff that's been happening. The difference is, while families usually grow stronger during rough times, it's like my dad's family is even more divided.
Take this family reunion, it's seems SO forced. For a number of reasons that are totally understandable, though. One being that it's in New York, where almost everyone lives, so it's not a vacation for them (and I wouldn't've gone either, but I love my daddy, so off I go!). Another is that there were two funerals recently and people just can't afford it. The third is that people just aren't into it anymore and don't want to go because they feel like it's fake and pointless and in a way, I tend to agree with them.
That's why the speech is so hard to write. When I think of family, I don't think of my dad's family (well, not overall), I think of my mom's side. When I think of my dad's side, I think of fakeness, cliques and materialistic things. Things that don't matter, not the strong, loving, UNCONDITIONAL bonds that I share with my mom's side. Crazy thing is, I was with my dad's side more than my mom's. There was a point where the only people I was with were my dad's family. So I'm sure you can imagine the upset at my sudden writer's block. I can't deal. I know I'll pull through and write something that'll be pretty generic, but it will continue to disturb me that I had this much difficulty.
Well, I'm still excited to be headed up north for a few days, for a few reasons, a few of which I will probably blog later. Cuz I can write, and I have BEEN writing, just not the speech I'm supposed to be writing. I mean, I love my dad's family, don't get me wrong, but a lot of things have changed and it makes me sad to a degree. It reminds me of the Mary J. Blige song in the title, "Reminisce on the love we had..."
I'll let ya know how it all works out...
I mean, my mom's side has been through a lot, with 3 funerals in 2 years (my grandmother, my great-grandmother and my momma), had we had stock in funeral flowers, we'd all be rich. But we've been blessed for the past 2 years as well, no real casualties to report. Now, my dad's side of the family, there have been a few blows, if you refer to the Legacy blog, you'll be able to catch up on all the fun stuff that's been happening. The difference is, while families usually grow stronger during rough times, it's like my dad's family is even more divided.
Take this family reunion, it's seems SO forced. For a number of reasons that are totally understandable, though. One being that it's in New York, where almost everyone lives, so it's not a vacation for them (and I wouldn't've gone either, but I love my daddy, so off I go!). Another is that there were two funerals recently and people just can't afford it. The third is that people just aren't into it anymore and don't want to go because they feel like it's fake and pointless and in a way, I tend to agree with them.
That's why the speech is so hard to write. When I think of family, I don't think of my dad's family (well, not overall), I think of my mom's side. When I think of my dad's side, I think of fakeness, cliques and materialistic things. Things that don't matter, not the strong, loving, UNCONDITIONAL bonds that I share with my mom's side. Crazy thing is, I was with my dad's side more than my mom's. There was a point where the only people I was with were my dad's family. So I'm sure you can imagine the upset at my sudden writer's block. I can't deal. I know I'll pull through and write something that'll be pretty generic, but it will continue to disturb me that I had this much difficulty.
Well, I'm still excited to be headed up north for a few days, for a few reasons, a few of which I will probably blog later. Cuz I can write, and I have BEEN writing, just not the speech I'm supposed to be writing. I mean, I love my dad's family, don't get me wrong, but a lot of things have changed and it makes me sad to a degree. It reminds me of the Mary J. Blige song in the title, "Reminisce on the love we had..."
I'll let ya know how it all works out...
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