"JustTrina"

Back from Alabama, lovin' bein' home. I had a wonderful holiday weekend and I hope everyone else did, too. I relaxed, watched some movies and just hung out with my beautiful cousin Raechelle and my brother. I was tossing and turning in bed, and I just had to get these thoughts out of my head, save I go a little crazy. I'm trying to plan a trip to Miami in August with my homegirls (Wendy, Daph and Cort!), so feel free to look us up. We're planning on getting a HOT hotel room (aimin' for the penthouse) down on South Beach August 18-22. Fun in the sun, and I'm gonna ACT UP!! So, I think I'm over my crush on Corey. Well, not really, but I'm not to let myself get hurt, which I can totally see on the horizon. Because of my brother. Or maybe not, who knows. I'm sure it could be something else and I'm not gonna leave myself open for that kind of upset. So, like Martini says, I'm "ripping the band-aid off with one motion." Do I like Corey? ...

So I was at the car dealer this morning getting an oil change. I'm still in love with the TB, so she still gets special treatment, gotta love the honeymoon period. Anyways, I was sitting in the lounge, and CNN Headline News was on. They did a story about Chris Rock having not one, but TWO movies coming out this weekend, something I didn't even realize. So they were interviewing him and I couldn't help but notice the way he was speaking. On the heels of the "white sounding" issues I've been having, I was watching Chris (Rock, not my brother) and couldn't help but note that his speech had changed. The person CNN was interviewing wasn't the stand up Chris Rock or the Chris Rock I saw on B.E.T. the other day, or even the 'Chris Rock Show' Chris Rock, this was a totally different guy. He sounded white. And I mean W-H-I-T-E, the kind that gives even me a run for the money. It seemed so fake, and it bothered me. I felt like he wasn't being himself...

Well, I'm trying to convince Max to move out here to Atlanta, I think he needs a change of pace. He's crazy cool, too. We'd get into a whole lotta trouble paintin' the town red. Lemme explain Max, he's a cool kid who goes to my church at home. We went to school in Albany together, but my nose was still wide open off Fabrice, so I kinda ignored him. Then I moved back home and Max got FLY! But, to me, he's short. And I don't do short. But he's cool. So he's moving out here, cuz I said so. Alabama looks like a bust, my brother works. Looks like it's time to find out what the ATL has to offer for Memorial Day!! Besides gay pride, of course. My dad gave me a pretty good concept to write a book about today. I helped him enter the 21st century (cringe now, yes) and got him an AIM screen name. Now I have a lot of patience and it stressed me out, but then I checked Hulse's profile and saw this: Star Wars Horoscope for Sagittarius You are superbly wise...

Just a few random thoughts for today (blog title included)... Why is it that when a person speaks well, and they happen to be black, they're told they sound white? That pisses me OFF. I think the thing of it is is that I don't like ANY stigma being put on me. I don't wanna fit into any box a person may try to put me in. I'm not your average chick, I'm not your average black chick, I'm not your average Rocklander. I've spent quite some time trying to break any stereotype that could be associated with me or any person. Whatever, I don't sound white and if you think so, fuck you. Fuck you up your stupid ass! Moving on... Ever think you're flyer than you really are? Like, the body you see in the mirror and how you view yourself? I think it's pretty funny how that works out. Like, I see myself in the mirror and think, "I'm a sexy bitch" one day and the next, pick myself apart. I know I have a keen fashion sense and a pretty decent body, ...

I was surfing the 'net at work today (the actual work/play ratio is gettin' outta wack nowadays) and I stumbled across this article about Lionel Tate. Remember him? The kid who killed a little girl with wrestling moves out in Florida. They wanted to try him as an adult, but he was acquitted. Well, apparently getting off from one of the most serious crimes you can commit in this country just isn't enough. Lionel, what I used to call a victim that overcame the judicial system has gone and done this dumb shit . Now he's being held without bail and will probably go to jail for the maximum, since they couldn't get him the first time around. So, let me take a moment to talk to Lionel just in case (while in jail, of course) he stumbles across this blog. Lionel Tate, you're a fucking idiot. God gave you a second chance at life and you shat on it. Remember back in the Old Testament, when God would just WIPE OUT whoever fucked up and couldn't follow his law? Well, dum...

I'm goin' SHOPPIN'!! Life is so wonderful sometimes, I tell ya. My old apartment complex just called and told me they had a my deposit check waiting for me. Friggin' awesome!! I've been sulking around, swollen jaw, sad and upset about the pain. But now, with an extra $510.00 burning in my hand, I am goin' SHOPPIN'!! I'm gonna shop for Florida, New Orleans, Miami, L.A. and N.Y.!! I can't WAIT!! Now, I'm not gonna blow it all, I have some sense about me, but a LOT of it's going to my fashion addiction!! I have visions of skirts and sandals dancing in my head. And let's not forget, accessories, accessories, accessories!! Guess I really need to get crackin' on gettin' stuff out to Goodwill, cuz now I have motivation!!! I LOVE SPRING/SUMMER!! :-D

I hate passive aggressiveness, man, I really do. As usual, I have a story to follow. So, me and my brother were driving to La'Keyia's house for a round of swimming (I've been depressed recently, swollen jaw and all) and I took it as an opportunityto ask him about Corey. I told him nothing was set in stone and that I may have the slightest, tiniest baby crush on him. To which Chris became STRESSED out. He told me Corey was younger than he told me he was and that he had a girlfriend, both of which didn't really matter to me, cuz I'm not planning on marrying the boy. After a few minutes of silence, he basically said I was an adult and I was gonna do whatever I wanted to do anyway, so it was fine. I was really impressed with the maturity that my brother was working with and was happy that no real waves were caused. Then we got to La'Keyia's house. La'Keyia's never ready on time, so we ended up wasting some time in her apartment before heading to the pool...