Jerry Maguire
Remember that movie "Jerry Maguire"? With Tom Cruise and that whole "you had me at hello" thing? Well, lemme tell ya, it's not that smooth in real life!
I'm gonna say this, probably only once, then it's goin' in my little boundary box, all right? Last night, at 1:18 a.m., I swallowed my pride and told Corey I liked him. And he told me there was a mutual attraction between us. So I don't know what any of that means, but I DO know it's a big step.
We were talking about something and I told him how I hated liking and/or being attracted to people, cuz the other person gets all the power. And I'm a control freak. Then I was suddenly overcome with the urge to tell him how I felt and bl-bl-bluh, so I got off the phone with him. See, the thing with me is, I shut myself down when it comes to sharing how I feel with people a LOT because it's just not a side I tend to show. I mean, I DO things for that person, but I don't think I verbalize it very much. I don't know why I do it, but I see now it's all right. I guess I just felt like every time I told a guy I liked him, I never got anything back from it. As a matter of fact, I don't think a guy that I've liked has EVER told me that he liked me first. Why is that part so hard?
I'll tell you why. Cuz you don't know what he or she's gonna say or do next. You can't predict that and as humans, we don't put something out there without knowing the result for sure. Fear of that can stop us dead in our tracks, and we miss out on a lot. But I think I'm over that, now it's no hold barred, that's a risk I'm ready to run now. Like, I told Corey I like him, right? And I can create all SORTS of scenarios in my head about his reaction. He could now be like "Yes, my evil plan is in motion!! Now on to the draws, so I can say I pulled Chris' sister!" or "Yes! I've freed this woman from her fear of the past! Now how do I tell her that that's all I wanted to do so she can go out and find somebody that's not me?" On the other side of things, he may just be like, "I'm glad that chick got over herself, now we can keep it movin'. But damn, that took long!" Ya never know. Chances are it's not that serious, but people wonder. So there it is, I said it once, and now it's in the boundary box. We're gonna throw it in the ocean and the only way you can find it is if you're mutha f*in Jaques Cousteau.
My point here is, if you like someone, just let them know. It'll save you a lot of headaches, pacing and sleepless nights. As I've said before, there are 6 billion people out there, if the one you share your feelings with doesn't reciprocate, don't worry, you'll run into another. This is not a movie, it's the real world, where people stop being polite and start being real.
Where do I go from here? I have no friggin' clue....Damn you, Jerry Maguire...
I'm gonna say this, probably only once, then it's goin' in my little boundary box, all right? Last night, at 1:18 a.m., I swallowed my pride and told Corey I liked him. And he told me there was a mutual attraction between us. So I don't know what any of that means, but I DO know it's a big step.
We were talking about something and I told him how I hated liking and/or being attracted to people, cuz the other person gets all the power. And I'm a control freak. Then I was suddenly overcome with the urge to tell him how I felt and bl-bl-bluh, so I got off the phone with him. See, the thing with me is, I shut myself down when it comes to sharing how I feel with people a LOT because it's just not a side I tend to show. I mean, I DO things for that person, but I don't think I verbalize it very much. I don't know why I do it, but I see now it's all right. I guess I just felt like every time I told a guy I liked him, I never got anything back from it. As a matter of fact, I don't think a guy that I've liked has EVER told me that he liked me first. Why is that part so hard?
I'll tell you why. Cuz you don't know what he or she's gonna say or do next. You can't predict that and as humans, we don't put something out there without knowing the result for sure. Fear of that can stop us dead in our tracks, and we miss out on a lot. But I think I'm over that, now it's no hold barred, that's a risk I'm ready to run now. Like, I told Corey I like him, right? And I can create all SORTS of scenarios in my head about his reaction. He could now be like "Yes, my evil plan is in motion!! Now on to the draws, so I can say I pulled Chris' sister!" or "Yes! I've freed this woman from her fear of the past! Now how do I tell her that that's all I wanted to do so she can go out and find somebody that's not me?" On the other side of things, he may just be like, "I'm glad that chick got over herself, now we can keep it movin'. But damn, that took long!" Ya never know. Chances are it's not that serious, but people wonder. So there it is, I said it once, and now it's in the boundary box. We're gonna throw it in the ocean and the only way you can find it is if you're mutha f*in Jaques Cousteau.
My point here is, if you like someone, just let them know. It'll save you a lot of headaches, pacing and sleepless nights. As I've said before, there are 6 billion people out there, if the one you share your feelings with doesn't reciprocate, don't worry, you'll run into another. This is not a movie, it's the real world, where people stop being polite and start being real.
Where do I go from here? I have no friggin' clue....Damn you, Jerry Maguire...
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