Time and Tide
Every human interaction has a point at which a decision needs to be made. If you're "talking" to someone, there's a point where you need to decide whether or not you should date or just be friends. If you're dating someone, you need to decide whether or not you're gonna be exclusive. If you're dating and exclusive, the decision on the "Big S" needs to be made. My point is, everything has a progression. It's called developing. And it happens to all of us.
So the reason for all that is that I think Corey and I have reached that point. We've been talking for a while now, on the phone basically everyday, for hours. But now I think it's time for a decision to be made, cuz my feelings are starting to evolve and reality is starting to set in. The reality that we live over 1,000 miles apart. The reality that he is a 21-year old COLLEGE STUDENT who just got an off-campus apartment. The reality that he is my brother's friend. The reality that nothing will very well come of this entire experience. The reality that nothing coming out of this entire experience will suck balls.
So, I've made a decision for both of us: I'm going to stop talking to Corey "like that" because I'm gonna be the one holding my heart in my hands. And I mean it. This isn't an "I'm-having-a-temper-tantrum-cuz-I-really-like-this-guy-and-don't-know-how-he-feels-so-I'm-gonna-nip-this-in-the-bud-so-I-don't-get-hurt" rant, either, this is the God's honest truth. And it's totally my forte. I do this to myself all the time. I go for the virtually impossible to see if I can overcome it and reap the rewards and always end up screwed. Well not this time. I like Corey way too much to go through all that, so it's gonna be friends and nothing more.
It's really the only way, anyway. If I don't get that set in my head now, I know I'm gonna be miserable once he gets a boo. I find myself thinking about him more than I should, and I know that's not a good sign. Veronica's been trying to talk me down, but that wonderful human instinct of self-preservation is overpowering her! I love her for it, though. Friends are awesome!! :-P
So that's where I'm at, I've got a lot to think about. How to maintain a friendship while letting my feelings recuperate. Once I'm better, though (and I get his permission), I'll post his picture for y'all to see. He's a good guy and since I'm not gonna be his boo, I can be a great cheerleader for his ass!! :-D
No use in fighting the inevitable, time and tide wait for no man.
So the reason for all that is that I think Corey and I have reached that point. We've been talking for a while now, on the phone basically everyday, for hours. But now I think it's time for a decision to be made, cuz my feelings are starting to evolve and reality is starting to set in. The reality that we live over 1,000 miles apart. The reality that he is a 21-year old COLLEGE STUDENT who just got an off-campus apartment. The reality that he is my brother's friend. The reality that nothing will very well come of this entire experience. The reality that nothing coming out of this entire experience will suck balls.
So, I've made a decision for both of us: I'm going to stop talking to Corey "like that" because I'm gonna be the one holding my heart in my hands. And I mean it. This isn't an "I'm-having-a-temper-tantrum-cuz-I-really-like-this-guy-and-don't-know-how-he-feels-so-I'm-gonna-nip-this-in-the-bud-so-I-don't-get-hurt" rant, either, this is the God's honest truth. And it's totally my forte. I do this to myself all the time. I go for the virtually impossible to see if I can overcome it and reap the rewards and always end up screwed. Well not this time. I like Corey way too much to go through all that, so it's gonna be friends and nothing more.
It's really the only way, anyway. If I don't get that set in my head now, I know I'm gonna be miserable once he gets a boo. I find myself thinking about him more than I should, and I know that's not a good sign. Veronica's been trying to talk me down, but that wonderful human instinct of self-preservation is overpowering her! I love her for it, though. Friends are awesome!! :-P
So that's where I'm at, I've got a lot to think about. How to maintain a friendship while letting my feelings recuperate. Once I'm better, though (and I get his permission), I'll post his picture for y'all to see. He's a good guy and since I'm not gonna be his boo, I can be a great cheerleader for his ass!! :-D
No use in fighting the inevitable, time and tide wait for no man.
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